Monday, July 20, 2009

you major then march



tring tring !!! hello ya this is ani, hey!! ani , nishh here ... she was my school frnd with whom i was not been in regular touch. well nish started up like " hey keep urself free on 26th of this month," Im getting married". i did not know wat to say and simply offered my congradulations and asked about her better half wat has he done n other things..
as soon as i put down the phone, i was apprehensive about sharing the news with my mother,i had never in my wildest dreams thought that life would ring such alarm bells at the age of 23,24..i asked mom "wat is the hurry?","no hurry",said she.but v need to atleast start looking for a guy, the option get limited once u cross 25, mom said. true, they hav to start looking, considering that one as failed miserably in that department.
wat the usual 1st step for wedding march, to prepare urself, to prepare wat our better half demands specially cooking cleaning etc etc..
gals always have less days to give their opinion n decision, wel y is this always ... i hv stopped thinkin so much as i beleive to go with the flow, after all if girls my age have been doing it wat is stopping me. women is under moral pressures all the time, but i appreciate n some tyms even laugh at rakhi sawant that she s deciding her life on the idiot box who to marry?, i mite get a few tips from watching it .who knows.......hee hee....

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

thanks for those few days i dreamt


it was a days in my school v had a nice discussion of our frnds , frnds of frnds, trends etc etc...i had a frnd , i called her my best frnd , she alwayz had a story to entertain me ,i call this day a special when she started up with the story , the main character was someone who i always dreamt about, she was so near and exact to my dreams with her narration, i called her a cuppid buddy.. she showed me the person who i always dreamt like my soul mate... in fact she could only show me with her narration....infact i who found him completely .... well days went with the hours , hours run with seconds , but i was still the same never could i able to found him...do i really can find him someday??
well i think i did :) 2yrs later.......
in the wedding hall, i could just see him who completely matched the person in my dream , i was just not believing is it him , is it him , is it really him.... i called my cuppid n confirmed , heyy cuppid is it the person u narrated dat day, cuppid says exactly the same person.. how did u guess... i had no answer for this ... i was really happy to see him so early ....wat next ...?? never dreamt after that, had enough dreams before seeing him. but could not continue it after seeing him.. strange , i kno i am ....did this dreamless dream continued??
well i think i again started
1 year after
i found him in my collage , hahha i was again confused is he the one , called up cuppid to help me , cuppid says yes .... wow!!! it was a first year in first bench i was waiting to see him to pass my class room , he never turned up till the 15min of my 1st hr, my eyes were really blaming the leacturer who was closing the main door, it was a monsoon wheather , i turned right when the door opened for a wind, hahah there i lost myself , it was him rushing to his drawing hall.....
i was just left with year to miss him , i had seen him hardly 4 times ... the fifth time was really heart breaking, cant just think of dat day any more, it was me performing , next was my performance , he was there back stage , i was happy to see him before my performance , but i cried .... y y y ...? i found him with his girl , he was there to wish her not me , he was there to see her performance not mine.... world 's bad day was on me ...everthing was normal after this, because i was normal, i could understand the situation, i was no selfish , wished for them ......
i called my cuppid , shared my tears.... my cuppid had something more to narrate me , but cuppid decided to surprise one day...
a year later i met who??
i met the person who i dreamt.... ha ha i met him , v became good frnds, heard all his sad parts of story dat she had left him for no reason.... i was still so normal, but this cuppid made me to continue my dream, but i had no second thought, well i went busy day by day , even he was busy , hardly v had time to say hi for months , i dint want to disturb him , since he was very dedicating person towards his destination, one day he missed me and gave a call, y was it so...
he really wanted me there , he was sad , alone ,couldnt say a word , he was missin his frnds, he had less days to count , finally i could hear from him girl i really liked u but but , im not so lucky to keep u happy im sorry im sorry , he fell n cried ... i was in a big pause!!!!! wats wrong ??
i then got the loud answer to my pause it was his last few days .....my life's most worst day..
it was after that he never turned back to me , i never wanted to loose him , but he never kept his promise to be with me .....
5months later
i was so alone missed him in every part of my life, but i had my own LIFE which i really dint want to make it soul less , i had promised him to smile always .. i started up with the spirituality life , started to revealing y this life for , experimented with 45 days of meditation . things changed i had completely believed the fact he s no way can come back....

i still blame my cuppid , why did that dream came when u were narrating, its because of u cupid , well, Love can make you laugh; love can make you cry. This page is dedicated to people who have experienced the sorrowful side.
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go dat made me strong .
The happiest thing in my world was I loved someone who used to love me.thanks for those few days i dreamt ... cupid cupid i miss your stories where are u :)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

hojaye naa


ahsu athe hey tumhe khone se phele;
rohnaa ahathe hey tumhe chodne se phele;
toot ja te hey sapne risthe bann ne se phele;
kaun sa jeena hey yeh;
kash koi rokh le the pyar hone se phele;

mudke tum aahoghe tho phir
hum utna hi pyar lekhe aahenghe;
waqt beeth jaye parwa nahi, tumara
intazaar mhe hey hum;
tum hekh baar pukarlo,
apni mout se bhi sanse udhar lekhe ayenghe;

"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."
--Janos Arnay
-ani 8/7/09