does soulmate exist ?!!!!

well it was a beautiful place v had planned for a trekking camp, i am always happy to travel anywhere that sounds worth my time, i can even forget my comforts ...
first thing v checked visitors book when v went up to our cottage, the reviews wat v found amazed us... well this was one "this place should come with a health warning , u r atleast a stone heavier, food is irresistable"-wrote by some mahatma IAN Mc DONALD, LAST SEASON IN VISITORS book.few weeks later as v skipped the page dutuch couple had filled out with neat cursive hand naming 81 species of birds they saw in span of few days in the same green n gold leather mountain voloume.
i dnt kno all these ppl in the visitors book r addicted to birdwatching n hiking, they are kind of ppl who never came for an holiday.... actually im one of them , but in my case i discount in counting species n stuff heehee..i always liked to update my visualised memory in a paper then in d visitors book...:)
well well i had a paulo chelho 's BRIDA
must say a super cool novel , this novel explains hw to recognise ur soulmates???
this was a complete book of my choice,...can u can u was my eager to read it in a day , yes v can recognise our soulmates if v work on two traditions one is SUN TRADITION and THE OTHER IS MOON tradition... if i follow sun tradition i can see a aura enlightened in left shoulder of my soulmate wen i see him first , well i went a flash back if at all i found something like this b4 , well fine the other is moon path were u see in him a bright eyes n u cant take off ur eyes for more then two min on his eyes... hahah dats actually very common ... i communicate with ppl looking at their eyes but nvr found bright eyes as such... hhmmm ..i was soo in to the boook...

this camp was complete high potentially planned, early morning jog enjoyed the mist.there was much to do for a day , after jog v rested had coffee.each cottage had cozy wood and stone finished bathroom, with running hot water and mirror u surprisingly forget to see yourself in haha...well all ready for the trekking v planned for miles , 1st destiny was up near a tribal group, v saw a dramatic tribal dance, and multicoloured festive tress.. i was so happy to fill my 30 pages of wonderfull experience interviewing the heads of tribes about the festival..
end of the day ,3 things to be done trekk, read , and simply doze off..
its usual with everyone , when v r relaxed, strange things come to the fore, the books u hv read n things u ll start imagining..whirpool inside there was a story i was in heart of a imagination adventure land .

well all frnds together watching mejestic mountains surrounding us, it was dark after that , our torches failed in the forest , groups divided for single number following each other , v almost could'nt read the map...i was left alone since i rested long tym .. i echoed calling my frnds name no response , now i was in begining of panicing it was a heavy cold, damnn were is my way , helo hello somebody there ... hmm hello... every one dissappered all in seconds hw vil i reach camp?? well for a change i heard somebody the same , hello somebody there.. wwell i heard him for far but could'nt see ... finally he echoed the one thought that was coursing through my mind. i pinched my hand, it was so beautifull i really wanted to cry hahah.. i was alone inthe dark forest my sun moon path were working, my right tear came out i was jumping to echo a help from the other side..
excuse me!! hello ... i turned around towards him,i was in pause looking at his eyes, i even found a yellow aura on his left shoulder hahaha im crying , deep inside my soul is smiling hahah..i kept silent wrote the time n date in my princess diary wen i was walkin with him till i reached the camp area... well thats still a special moment i saw my soulmate , but couldnt say him a word , wake up gal its morning my frnds all ready for the morning jog i was still on dozzing a dream with my soulmate.. hahaha got up n sad was it a dream til now ... well i convinced myself "NOTHING IMPOSSIBLE IN LOVE AND DREAM ".... HAHAHA does soulmate exits!!!

seven and heaven days in chennai

day 1, 25th 6:30pm
left mysore, tuticoon was our train , well v were total 7 till bangalore, from there 7-1=6, but our very sweet sister in law joined us, again 7 was in count again . it was 10.50 pm when v took the chennai mail express.26th, 12:00am akshatha /maanasa/AJ 's birthday infact, v surprised her with the cake had enough of time pass and turn off the light as it disturbed others in the train. it was 5:45am wen v reached chennai central, from there took a city train from chennai park and about 45min journey to TAMBARAM the place were v wanted to land up.Anna picked all of us home from railway station. i must say the entry to the INDIAN AIR FORCE was so good , they had deer abt 100 in number inside the campus wow!! deer in front of our house .entry from main door , it was a proud feeling to see Squadron LEADER C.G. DEEPAK written in the rite side of the door... well all tired got fresh, and anna athighe took us for swimming pool , since maana's b'day with threw her in the pool n enjoyed , came back home and slept off, when v got up it was around six . v dint wanted to sit at home went to squash court with rackets to play some tym.when v got back home anna had a very big surprise for MAANA/akshatha,A choclate fantasy cake on the table in the garden , with sanhandry wine. hahaha dat was a gud time all of us had with music .

day 2,27th

it was 7:30 am when six of us left to see chennai tourist places, V had the list to cover MAHABAILI PURAM, FIVE RATHAS a historical place, beach temple,DAKSHINNA CHITRA,ECR DABBHA for lunch,dolphin city, dizzee world.
ECR ROAD was too gud to drive more then 8o km /hr...MAHABALIPURAM was our first destination well this place is too gud for sculptures and infact photograpy, v frnds started to pose for camera s since the location was mind blowing, but the heat took all our energy , v shopped some marbble jwellery case, some shells . later v moved on to temple at the beech . the temperature was very high all were almost baked n tired . next was a place i wanted suggest all of u who visits chennai , its a place called DAKSHINNA CHITRA very next to DIZZEE WORLD, this place was rich in telling south indian living style , culture, art, houses etc etc . i had a oppurtunity to play colours on pots wow!! it feels gr8 when u keep busy with colours . v headed to pottery house , there two of us tried making pots . i made one which was very small . rest 4of them were busy with mehandi on their hands.there was one more place to use ou r creative mind, a bowl full of different types of shells n glue next to it. i made a turtle using shells. well v had our lunch in ECR DABBHA surrounded by perciasn cats, emo s ,ducks geese.dolphin city was gud v met a seal named kelly , she entertained us for 20 mins....wat a busy fantastic sunny day v had ....all tired reached home at 10 . our favourite champ athighe prepared fantastic dinner.

day 3,28th 2009
v 8 of us including anna and athighe went to KODAMBAKAM catching a local train frmom Tambaram, v were almost late wen v left home, well from kodambakam haha i must say v had jets ready t take us , u kno wat jets v had auto riskshaws ...i must say they demand more but they worth payin more since v were running short of tym had 5 min for a movie to start , stupid sunny traffic. u can trust a riskshaw person to make u reach ne part of chennai in less then 10 so i called them jets. wow v were not at all late to SATHYAM multiplex to watch HANG OVER. Movie was simply gud.
v took a riskshaw to SPENSOR PLAZZA shopped nicely n took train from edmore to mamballam then tired back home to tambaram.

day 4, 29th '09
ha hahaaha guess wat all of ready early to leave for shopping to MAMBALLAM , 6 of us plus our favourite champ sister in law with us. i must say mamballam is a place good for textiles textiles n u can see complex s only for textiles, v headed to SARVANA TEXTILES VERY FAMOUS in tamil nadu. almost tired in dat place , arpan took temple set jwellery for her sis , geeth chethana, maana ashu busy finding some nice kurtis n sarees , v nxt took our steps to POTHY'S. after shopping for more then 6k all together v were gifted with kgs of carrots tomatoes from POTHY 'S. well our champ was happy to prepare a sweet dish evening for all of us .v watched tom cruise TOP GUN movie in the night.

day 5, 30th
all of us were lazy to see the sunn , got up around 10 . v had no plans for the day almost tired shopping,well anna suggested us to plan for beech n crocodile park since v missed last tym due to holiday tuesday. well all got ready , cab was booked ,on the way our car broke i mean the left tire was gone , driver took 20 min to replace the tire, luckily nothing much serious ,v went to croc park later took a turn over strange road side beech , had lunch prepared and sent by our fav champ.few soaked n had funn in beech few of us had a walk in the shore. well v were given time to get back home around 5since anna promised he ll take us for air force station , on the way v took gift for anna atighe , and took black forest in ccd, lovely couple wriiten on it . it was all ready six and started to rain.
evening plans for air station was cancelled since no night flying due to rain,but v had planned to party to suprise anna n athighe well this day was the best day i must say all of us on the dance floor with d drink , had a blast party and a superb dinner.. this was not the end of the day. Anna surprised us to take us on run way in his carr at 1 o clock in the night . it was a ristricted area , anna was in his uniform. on our entry we were stopped with the gunn , all of us numb ... wats going wrong now, the gaurd asked for password , anna dint knew , but later anna said this is scord leader C.G .DEEPAK . THE GAURD then saluted anna , uff v were safe. i must say our deepak anna is really brave fighter pilot.carr head light were off he took us to runn way . v r not at all suppose to walk on it , but he made us to sit on it also. me n geeth was scared in fact due to gunn raised by the gaurd.well on our way back home saw AVRIO, CIVILIAN plan parked in the hanger.
day 6, 31th
VARAHMAHALAKSHIM POOJA DIN
all fresh , watched some OSCAR movie s . athighe prepared sandwitch for all of us , she did pooja and v had our lunch , v gals so excited dint even sleep afternoon , b 'coz v were going to see deepak anna work station , i must say its very difficult to get a chance to see our indian fighter pilot hero s working but v were very much lucky .. anna had his fly timing at 5 o clock , v were there at four he explained fighter planes all of us took the pictures inside the fighter plane. 5 o clock anna left us with his frnd who took us to the run way were anna was about to fly. v were 10 steps away to see my brother getting a huge plane for the last check up on run way b4 flying, he saw us, gave a fly kiss and waved us , v saluted him. engine started it takes 320liters to start the engine at once , and the take off speed was 220km/hr, all of us had tears in our eyes seeing our bro flyin , it was a happie proud symbol. i must say this, its worst being a coward ordinary, i am too much coward. S/L C.G.deepak taught us alot , he s a real brave hero, infact super hero. after the IAF station visit, all of us went freshed up to swim . me geeth and chetana had funn swimming for an hour.got back home around 8pm. athighe is a doctor, dentist, she had her pg class on saturday so she was leaving to bang. v missed her from heart.
night v six of us watched SHUTTER..

day 7 , 2nd '09
our tickets were confirmed v were leaving in the evenin 9:30 train.morning v prepared upituu hahah it came out well , anna liked it. watched some stupid movies english patient, forest gump.. v started to prepare for lunch all six of us in kitchen . well v also prepared sandwitches for our dinner in train . seven days of heaven almost came to an end , v missed anna athighe, v learnt a lot from them , “When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.” this seven days heaven gave us confident, joy, and made understand us few challenges of life..thanks to
maana who planned this trip
thanks to anna athighe, a lovely couple
thanks to
akshtatha, geetha, chethana, ashwini, arpana, n myself ani for making this seven days heaven

you major then march

tring tring !!! hello ya this is ani, hey!! ani , nishh here ... she was my school frnd with whom i was not been in regular touch. well nish started up like " hey keep urself free on 26th of this month," Im getting married". i did not know wat to say and simply offered my congradulations and asked about her better half wat has he done n other things..
as soon as i put down the phone, i was apprehensive about sharing the news with my mother,i had never in my wildest dreams thought that life would ring such alarm bells at the age of 23,24..i asked mom "wat is the hurry?","no hurry",said she.but v need to atleast start looking for a guy, the option get limited once u cross 25, mom said. true, they hav to start looking, considering that one as failed miserably in that department.
wat the usual 1st step for wedding march, to prepare urself, to prepare wat our better half demands specially cooking cleaning etc etc..
gals always have less days to give their opinion n decision, wel y is this always ... i hv stopped thinkin so much as i beleive to go with the flow, after all if girls my age have been doing it wat is stopping me. women is under moral pressures all the time, but i appreciate n some tyms even laugh at rakhi sawant that she s deciding her life on the idiot box who to marry?, i mite get a few tips from watching it .who knows.......hee hee....

thanks for those few days i dreamt

it was a days in my school v had a nice discussion of our frnds , frnds of frnds, trends etc etc...i had a frnd , i called her my best frnd , she alwayz had a story to entertain me ,i call this day a special when she started up with the story , the main character was someone who i always dreamt about, she was so near and exact to my dreams with her narration, i called her a cuppid buddy.. she showed me the person who i always dreamt like my soul mate... in fact she could only show me with her narration....infact i who found him completely .... well days went with the hours , hours run with seconds , but i was still the same never could i able to found him...do i really can find him someday??
well i think i did :) 2yrs later.......
in the wedding hall, i could just see him who completely matched the person in my dream , i was just not believing is it him , is it him , is it really him.... i called my cuppid n confirmed , heyy cuppid is it the person u narrated dat day, cuppid says exactly the same person.. how did u guess... i had no answer for this ... i was really happy to see him so early ....wat next ...?? never dreamt after that, had enough dreams before seeing him. but could not continue it after seeing him.. strange , i kno i am ....did this dreamless dream continued??
well i think i again started
1 year after
i found him in my collage , hahha i was again confused is he the one , called up cuppid to help me , cuppid says yes .... wow!!! it was a first year in first bench i was waiting to see him to pass my class room , he never turned up till the 15min of my 1st hr, my eyes were really blaming the leacturer who was closing the main door, it was a monsoon wheather , i turned right when the door opened for a wind, hahah there i lost myself , it was him rushing to his drawing hall.....
i was just left with year to miss him , i had seen him hardly 4 times ... the fifth time was really heart breaking, cant just think of dat day any more, it was me performing , next was my performance , he was there back stage , i was happy to see him before my performance , but i cried .... y y y ...? i found him with his girl , he was there to wish her not me , he was there to see her performance not mine.... world 's bad day was on me ...everthing was normal after this, because i was normal, i could understand the situation, i was no selfish , wished for them ......
i called my cuppid , shared my tears.... my cuppid had something more to narrate me , but cuppid decided to surprise one day...
a year later i met who??
i met the person who i dreamt.... ha ha i met him , v became good frnds, heard all his sad parts of story dat she had left him for no reason.... i was still so normal, but this cuppid made me to continue my dream, but i had no second thought, well i went busy day by day , even he was busy , hardly v had time to say hi for months , i dint want to disturb him , since he was very dedicating person towards his destination, one day he missed me and gave a call, y was it so...
he really wanted me there , he was sad , alone ,couldnt say a word , he was missin his frnds, he had less days to count , finally i could hear from him girl i really liked u but but , im not so lucky to keep u happy im sorry im sorry , he fell n cried ... i was in a big pause!!!!! wats wrong ??
i then got the loud answer to my pause it was his last few days .....my life's most worst day..
it was after that he never turned back to me , i never wanted to loose him , but he never kept his promise to be with me .....
5months later
i was so alone missed him in every part of my life, but i had my own LIFE which i really dint want to make it soul less , i had promised him to smile always .. i started up with the spirituality life , started to revealing y this life for , experimented with 45 days of meditation . things changed i had completely believed the fact he s no way can come back....

i still blame my cuppid , why did that dream came when u were narrating, its because of u cupid , well, Love can make you laugh; love can make you cry. This page is dedicated to people who have experienced the sorrowful side.
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go dat made me strong .
The happiest thing in my world was I loved someone who used to love me.thanks for those few days i dreamt ... cupid cupid i miss your stories where are u :)

hojaye naa

ahsu athe hey tumhe khone se phele;
rohnaa ahathe hey tumhe chodne se phele;
toot ja te hey sapne risthe bann ne se phele;
kaun sa jeena hey yeh;
kash koi rokh le the pyar hone se phele;

mudke tum aahoghe tho phir
hum utna hi pyar lekhe aahenghe;
waqt beeth jaye parwa nahi, tumara
intazaar mhe hey hum;
tum hekh baar pukarlo,
apni mout se bhi sanse udhar lekhe ayenghe;

"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."
--Janos Arnay
-ani 8/7/09

WHEN EVERYTHING IS LOST , FUTURE STILL REMAIN.


DREAM TOOK ME IN ALL 3 LANES ,40 , 60 , 80 .
i could see nothing except a way straight with misty;
excitement , fun , future was all to be predicted positive,
never knew there exists hurdles which took my journey complicative.


i never got confused , never had a LAST OPTION;
was in high speed to fulfill my destiny;
never took a break , kept on dreaming ;
my breaks failed i just started screaming.

i woke up , my eyes could see d reality,
but i broke when the truth rushed my nervous,
i was standing alone in a wide road ,
it was heavy rain , i was crying in pain .

yet no one with me all far happy dreaming
i hardly had a few minutes to wish for somebody i really loved .
closed my eyes to breathe for last ,
everything was mine was LOST.
FUTURE remained blank, no cost.

23 rd january 2009

yathish anna was awarded a gold medal as a star performer OF the year 2008 for his company canon, he was honoured by SACHIN TENDLUKAR..

january 20th
early morning movie AAGHE SUMMANE in LAKSHMI theatre, v were 4 of us geeth , ash, cp, dsp
sitting royally in balcony , no crowd , not really more then 20...
movie comes in list of crap movies like aag n cc2c, worst...
i was sitting in d top corner n saw three kittens nxt to the screen ,but the sound came rite under my seat, they made us more interesting then the stupid movie..
time : 2.30
venu: green leaf
treat by: dsp
because: he got placed in Nokia Seimens.
DSP called up druv n abi to join us for the lunch , druv was busy n did not turn up, abilash came wen dsp was abt to pay d bill, even abi was placed in ITC INFO TECH..
u kno the best thing to be with dsp, he ll call all of us together n counsel us for all our future plans , that round table in green leaf gave us more oppurtunity to discuss about our recruitment training, dsp shared his experience hw he faced 19 company n finally got into nokia.

time : 4:30
place : home
crank call to geetha ,i received n spoke to him just to say never call her again
but the voice on d other was so damn sweet i just kept silent after i heard...
time 5:45pm
wat was nxt : vinutha called us for the school reunion
venu : in her house
ani, geetha , shwetha, chetana. kruthika .... had a superb tym, v all had nothing in common to talk , but v managed no silence not even a min[:P]
later it was me n geeth have to drop others , it was all ready 9:45pm
rushed home ...

nammuke onicchu pogham...

it ws 14 th jan 2009 , me n papaa been to sweeja 's place to invite them for lunch , mumma prepared bindas lunch for them , its because they were leaving us , leaving mysore.. it was around 2.10 exactly SUKUMARAN UNCLE , VALSALLA AUNTY , N SWEEJA turned up home .. SWAROOP anna was absent n amma ma also, my dad was little busy with his loan ny clients he got a call n he was nt with us for lunch ... v had a superb meal... it was a shankrathi special.. uncle aunty took me also to geetha s place for their last visit to say them bye... back home tired ... wen i opened my eyes it was 15th jan 2009 , sweeja family was leaving mysore to their land , kerala.. v went there early at 10 packing all over set to run them in lorry.. geetha s mom prepared bisibele bath mosaranna for them early morning ..i missed my house were i mostly shared my happiness , played with amma ma , il miss her malayalum kannada , ill miss my shark fish , wen eva i was sad i used to runn to her place ...but im lucky once in my lyf tym i had a wonderfull family which was almost my house, amma ma promised me she ll find a guy for me while leaving ( she was d cutest grand maa ), all their eyes filled while they left mysore around 2.... this isnt the ending , our plan is every saturday me geeth n sweej vil be leaving to wynardfrom colg n come back directly to colg on monday , thodinna v can miss them... one big promise i hav asked aunty , please dont forget kannada aunty , il call every week n talk to u antha ... well nammuke onichu pogham was my last sentence.....( it says take me also along with u)...love doesnt last forever, it stays with us like a blessing..

digesting last page

emotions and sorrows left aside like a shade;
looking around for little happiness which will never fade;
i who rule my future and react;
believing it long enough,so that it will likely become a fact;

tough life is when an obstacle in my pathway seam wrong;
finding the stepping stone in my pathway to make my self strong;
it is tough to smile when there will be no smile maker;
but i laugh , its because i am dressing my thought;
life will be happy if i think nothing is lost ;

fun treaking with kids ... the innocence , funny stlye , naughtyness, energy n their respect ,feels like they all are wonderful colours in a whirpool of happiness n joy ... i feel strong n pride to be with them..

waqt ki prem kahani

doorr te tum meri aakhon ki nazaariyo mein;

pehali barr dekrahithi,sunatha tumare baare mein ise pehale;

pehachanliya tumara naam, tumhe dekthe hee;

kya isikho kehethe hey pehali nazaar kha pyar;

pyar pagal ho ki chizz hey muj je tab patha chala,

jab thumari kamoshi meri dil jitanne laga,

pehali mohabaat kha heyhasaas ho tum ,

tuhi meri pehala quahish, tu hi hoga aakhri yeh meri promise!!!

tu kehathe ho marna ja hoon kahi

waqt ki gadi kar rahi hey hum hey tumse judahee

(i hate wen u say dat)

mhe waadha karthi hoon ,tere bin jeelenghe hum,

akhele hee sahi iss zeher zindaghi kho peelenghe hum..

aab tum waadha karo or kaho ki "chodoongha naa sath teri".

hey kafi hoghi mere liye .har gumm utaloon ghi haskhe,

kyu khi ye dil hey mera, per dadhkan tumara;

tumjonaa hothe tho hum apni dil kabi nahi dehthe;

tere saath toota tho mhe kudh kho mita doonghi,

ye meri waadha, hey mhe zaroor karonghi;

waqt khi parwa maath kaaro, her khohi zindagi mhe, death hee sabse badaa secret hey

haso aur hasahoa kudhko kush rakne ke liye...

il promise mhe amesha tumari saath hi rahoonghi, her waqt...

geeth b'day celebration in my place

2nd of 2009 , all my frnds were almost tired with their examz , n it ws a party mood so planned to hv a small get together ... new year celebration was also incomplete so called up all my frnds n gave an idea to surprise geeth arrangin a small party for her b 'day(her b 'day was on 24th)..i start up with my food preparation, my sis in law prepared the world best fried rice ... i n sahana wen to devraj urs road to get her some present , a yellow teddy looked at us n said take me home ... i named him minnu n took him for geeth... n our nxt journey to get our pastry ..... came back home, food ws all set to eat .. i prepared baby corn vegg salad , gee likes it very much .. n finally it ws tym to call gee for the honour.. she was there in my place in 10 min after my call..
SHWETHA (1st person to b in tym ), sahana(helped most in arrangements), then turned up nishi(innu bandilwa yarru nu)... geetha , sweeja (finished her drawin lab n was not in tym), arpana (jus like swee)
after every one turned up v started with a nice b 'day wish n had pastry (butter scotch).. geeth gav vote of thanks.. amma n athigge arranged our lunch n it ws funn funn funn meal .. my baby corn ws too gud as all said ... it ws tym for me to introduce minnu to geeth.. v all presented her .. she was happie with all her surprises...
amelle full tym matthu matthu n every one left back home around 8 frm my place..
f.r.i.e.n.d.s - the tym v laugh , sing , celebrate are d memories n leaves no trace...
frnds thanks for everything u r for me...-ani